life is jus a way to c how d world is,it sdnt b mistaken wid the term torture!life mus b lived d way u wanted and sdnt b driven by ne ada influences.v r temporary here and doesnt matr wt u did or wt u hv done for d mankind(good or bad)...v hv jus one life n der sdnt b ne compromised on our hapiness.but as v move down d lane of life v seems to 4gt d real meaning of life..v started living a life of compromises....take for example v worked hard to get good marks in xms n miss d small hapiness tht cums on our way..v kip tellin ourselves ..jus one more yr of studies n der lies d hapiness ahead!but wen d nxt yr came..its d same story.v r adapted to it now ...living a lyf of compromises..der r people who cam in diz world n died without knowin wht hapiness is...thts sad!I dn wan my life to b tht way...i wan to fil n c d hapines diz world hs to offer me.hapiness starts with small thgs n small thgs in lyf matrs a lot...
I fil i have bin livin a compromised lyf ...ryt frm d day i gt ma senses i ws put into a place wer small kids r prepared to face d world...dey cald this place "schools"...bt i dn c a reason y i need to b trained to face d world...comon life isnt a war.i am nt against d centuries long tradition bt i fil i wd hv bin a beta person if i had been giben tym n space to choose wht i wanted to b in lyf...to choose wht i m good at....al i need ws guidance... nt bein directed!
i ws mentaly programmed to b on d edge or cut off frm d rest..this creates insecurity n i lived a life of fear.i m afraid to do d diff thg ...to do wht i believe in...jus bcoz its diff!i lived wid constant fear in mind whethr m doin good or bad in lyf...i am ready to accept nethg (which may b painful for me)if dat promises security for me..diz isnt d lyf i hv dreamt of!
D ada day ma manager scolded me bcoz i asked him to relocate me on d day s dey hv promised...he ws extendin two moe days.al i ask him ws (wid politeness) whethr it wd b posible to gt d same date...al i ws doin ws asking n nt even demandin for god sake!he started shoutin n al...n gave a fuckin half n hr lecture on al d trouble dey hv gone thru to gt me der!comon i waited for fuckin four months!n yet dey stil say m nt flexible...thts bulshit!n diz isnt d lyf m expectin!
ma lyf is compromised!
enuf said!
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