a new place

d past few weeks hs bin a transition period for me.so many thgs to do n very less tym.i hv bin travelin every ada day..runnin hea n der .i hate travelin...i m d kinda person who loves stayin at a place n stickin to tht place...no wonder y i dint go to ma hometown for 3 yrs.bt in travelin i fil sumthg strange...a filin i hv neva experiencd b4..a jeal s to say .jus lyg in tht packed 'indian' railway compartmnt....nothn to do ada tn starin at d faces of d people around.travelin is indeed borin.bt if u try 2 c d brghter syd...der r lot of thgs hapeng around..insyd tht packed compartmnt...people frm diff places havin meals 2gthr...getin to knw each ada..bcumin fns.. thos som hrs cn gt ya a frn for d lyftym.people travelin...some hv bg drms..some jus wanted to c der lov ones...som hv a goal in der mind...sm tensd for der sick parents...mixed emotions prevails in tht few sqr mtr comp.bt i ws travelin bcoz i hv no ada options.
mangalore to bangalore..n thn bangalore to mangalore...mangalore to bangalore ..n thn bangalore to pune ..al in 36 hrs ws jus too much for me.tk god! i managd to reach pune in one piece:).i came hea wid som dms...some hope...n lot of chalenges.i dn knw hw pune is...i ws consoled by ma dad sayg its a nice place bt thoz few wods wsnt jus enuf for me to trust thiz place.
"pune is expensive" ws ma first thot when i hd tht 'stick kulfi' for 25 bucks.n latr i found out tht its indeed n expensive city wen v booked a flat for 12k:).
"ma observatons neva goes wrong"..its a gift i said to maslf wid a pride in ma eyes!
d ada day i wen to railway statn to tak ma bike ,i shel out 800k jus coz ma bike ws caryg few drops of petrol!i say to maslf "welcome to pune"..its indeed a nice n expensive place!
considerg d fact tht i hv bin to one of d mst extreme place(manipur) in india...i knw i cn n wil survive hea..al i need is a decent salary:)..n al is well!

chilz!

do i need a flashy title to gt ya atention????

i believe in god!i believe in supernatural thgs!i  wonder y  i  tend to believe in al those.life is a 'so fah so good' kinda thg for me and for me life is jus living another day.m d kinda person wid whom u  cn discus abt god d whole nyt n stil cum out without a conclusion and tht s bcoz i  aint sure whethr god realy exists or nt. i  neva force ne1 to beleieve in whteva m nt sure of.bt i find solace in believg in d existence of god.whneva i  m alone i  neva try to fil d aloneness..whneva i m sad i  neva try to fil d sadness...whneva i m hapy i  try nt to fil d hapiness...becoz whteva d emotions may b...it wil go away aftr sumtym.i  say 'god' is jus n emotion...it is jus a mental state.for me god is jus another mood...n it wil go away aftr sometym!so here i m in a state of confusion,if i  am nt sure abt d existence of god(though i tend to believe),with wht faith sd i  pray(to god) thn ?is it coz i  fnd solace in doin tht or is it bcoz  people do it or is it bcoz i  hv bin doin it since i gt ma senses?i  aint sure y  i  do it but i  stil do it.i  look lk n idiot n i  fil d idiotness whteva i  wen to a temple closing ma eyes n standing infront of some wel crafted idols(or statue is a more refined word)mumerg some stupid wishes.thts d height of bein stupid 4 me.

after many slipless nyt n lotsa thkg(u  realy believe ths?)i  came to a 'not so complete' conclusion tht god is god n u  dn need to hv a definition of god.i  stil go to temple n i  stil pray to him bt i  cnt say i  believe in god....bt i  find peace in doin tht!

enuf 4 2day!uuufff!! 

Fuck.

fuck-it is one of d most beautiful word!english language sd b proud of it!i  dn think ne oda language hs any such beautiful word!

one tom frm califronia hs done a gr8 research on it. i thk he mus b d tom frm d tom dick hary fame!he says one of the most itrestg word in english  language is d word 'fuck'..it  is one magical word jus by its sound it cn describe pain, pleasue ,hate and love.in language it falls into many gramatical categories.it cn b used s a verd(both trasistive n intrasitive.).

tasistive--john fuck mary.

intrasitive--mary was fucked by john.

and as a noun---mary is a fine fuck!

it cn b used s an adjective---mary is fucking beautiful.

as u  cn c der r many nt word wid d versality of fuck...besides d sexual meaning der r of d following uses.

fraud---i  got fucked at d used car lot.

ignorance--fuck, if i  know.

trouble--i  guess m fucked nw.

agression--fuck u!

displeasure--wht d fuck is goin on here.

difficulty--i  cnt understand this fucking job.

incompetence--he is a fuck off.

suspicion--wht d fuck r u  doin?

enjoyment--i  hd a fucking tym.

request--get the fuck out of here.

greeting--hw d fuck r u?

hostility--i am goin to knock ur fucking head off!

apathy--who gives a fuck!

inovation--get a bigger fucking hammer.

surprise--fuck!u  scared the shit out of me.

anxiety--today is realy fucked.

and it is very healthy  to fuck..if every morning u do it s a  transendental meditation.

jus wen u  get up d first thg in d mong...repeat d mantra 'fuck u' 5 times..it clears the throat...this is hw i  kip ma throat clear!

enuf for 2day!

PS:this is an extract frm one of the speech by OSHO.if anyone gets offended in ne way by this post.....please fuck off!

college memories!

What if I was the superman!

I have been doin a lot of thinking lately....thanks to the extra free time I have due to recession.....that was supposed to be a joke!The last two posts were  extra serious and i need something light for now.(well,it is supposed to be an excuse for great writers when they don't know what to write ...in my case am just doing the formalities...:))

The other day I was just thinking....what if I was 'the superman'.....i thought its bullshit to even let something of that sort cross my mind.but, since i dint have any other 'better' thoughts coming up...y  not let lose of this wild thought!!!

The first thing that comes to my mind whenever i  think of any superhero is power.and in a more philosophical way....i  said to myself 'with great power comes great responsibilities'...(actualy its an extract from one of the spiderman movie....no issues of copyright i  guess).I would be lying if i  say i will start with all the social works and public works (n end up being an NGO)these superheroes usually do.so, its a mean world n its all about me...me n me.Dont wory guys i  wont be that bad...s a matter of fact i  will be very good n helpful....but everything comes with a price (s i  said its a mean world)and if i  get a good price for my work than y  sdnt i  do it.(comon i  have to run my family dude).

ok,first thing first....I need some money to lead a normal life.the govt sd understand this.And i  wont settle for anything less than 1 billion....no  no....well....10 billion UK pound per month.(comon i  hv to risk ma life n family ).with perks....incentives....reimbursmnt....housing ..travel....allownaces to name a few.with this very humble price i  can give you my service to the world.

If the govt doesnt agree to this thn i  have to see other alternatives....lk ..lk u knw...nethg!superman can be dangerous.first i  will tok to alkyda..or some muslim terrorst outfit who can pay the above mentioned price!if they pay the ryt price than i will warn the govt first(S i  said m a good person)and if dey(govt) r nt intrested thn sorry guys...its  a mean world!

The second alternative is n easy one....loot the bank.or loot rich people!i  can still gib some of d  share to the poor and needy.

WOW!!!!enuf of craps dude!how can i  possibly think of somthg realy stupid like this...hahha!!!

 i am a stupid guy n  superheroes cnt b stupid..ryt? ...bt whts d big deal everyone is stupid in some way or other!!ryt?

thts al folks!!!!

idolism--the naked truth!

One fine day I went to a temple (to accompany a friend who insisted me on coming along) and after reaching there I can see the crowd of worshipers engaged in worshiping the deity. The devotees were bowing down before the idols. An elderly man came to me said, "Nowadays people do not have faith in religion. very few people visit the temples."

I asked in a surprising tone, "Where is the religion in a temple? What a self- deceiver man is! He deceives himself by taking the idols as gods and surprisingly created by his own hands. He satisfies himself by taking the scriptures -- the product of his own mind -- as truth."

Whatsoever is the creation of man's own hands and mind is not religion and definitely not GOD. The idols sitting in the temples are not images of gods but of man himself. And what is written in the scriptures is but a reflection of man's own desires and thinking, not the truth seen within. It is not possible to express the truth in words. However, I would like to stress and express great respect of the religious scriptures, they contains great deal of truth and wisdom. I consider God as the truth, the innocence and the service. Being truthful to yourself and to other fellow humans, the innocence way of living life and of course helping other fellow human beings.

It is not possible to have an idol of truth, because truth is boundless, infinite and formless. It has no form, no name, no attribute. The moment it is given a form it disappears because it becomes a lie. 

In order to attain it, all idols and all physical conceptions have to be dropped; the whole cobweb of self-fabricated fallacies has to be swept away. That uncreated truth reveals itself only when man's consciousness is liberated from the prison which his own mind has created .

In fact, rather than building temples in order to find truth and God, we should demolish them; instead of sculpting idols, we should destroy them. We should drop our obsession with the form so that the formless may enter. The moment the manifest leaves our minds, the un-manifest appears.

It was there already, but it was hidden beneath the idols and the tangible. Just as we cannot see the empty space in a room stuffed with things -- remove those things and the empty space is revealed; it has always been there.

Truth too is like this. Empty the mind and it is there.

love--a diff take!

Man's greatest longing is for freedom.  Man is a longing for freedom.  Freedom is the very essential core of human consciousness:  Love is its circumference and freedom is its center.  These two fulfilled, life has no regret.  And they both are fulfilled together, never separately.   
 
People have tried to fulfill love without freedom.  Then love brings more and more misery, more and more bondage.  Then love is not what one has expected it to be;  it turns out just the opposite.  It shatters all hopes, it destroys all expectations, and life becomes a wasteland, a groping in darkness and never finding the door. 
 
Love without freedom naturally tends to be possessive.  And the moment possessiveness enters in, you start creating bondage for others and bondage for yourself, because you cannot possess somebody without being possed by him.  You cannot make somebody a slave without becoming a slave yourself.  Whatsoever you do to others is done to you. 
 
This is the basic principle to be understood, that love without freedom never brings fulfillment.   
 
And there have been people who have tried the other extreme, freedom without love.  These are the monks, the escapists, the people who renounce the world.  Afraid of love, afraid of love because it brings bondage, they renounce all the situations where love can flow, grow, can happen, is possible.  They escape into loneliness.  Their loneliness never becomes aloneness, it remains loneliness.  And loneliness is a negative state; it is utterly empty, it is sad.   
 
One can be a solitary, but that does not bring solitude.  Solitariness is just physical aloneness, solitude is spiritual aloneness.  If you are just lonely. . . and you will be if you have renounced the world.  If you have escaped from the world out of fear, you will be lonely, the world will haunt you and all kinds of desires will surround you.  You will suffer millions of nightmares, because whatsoever you have renounced cannot be dropped so easily.   
 
Renunciation is repression and nothing else.  And the more you repress a thing, the more you need to repress it.  And the more you go on repressing it, the more powerful it becomes.  It will erupt in your dreams, it will erupt in your hallucinations.  People living in the monasteries start hallucinating, people going to the Himalayan caves sooner or later are no more in contact with reality.  They start creating a reality of their own, a private reality, a fictitious reality. . . . .  
 
On the one hand is the person, the worldly person, who has tried to find love without freedom and has failed.  His life is nothing but a long, long slavery of many, many people, of many, many things.  He is not free to have even a slight movement.  That is one failure;  the majority of humanity is caught in that extreme. 
 
A few escape from the world:  seeing the misery, they start searching the other extreme; freedom, moksha, nirvana.  But they become neurotic, psychotic, they start living in their own dreams.  Loneliness is so much that one has to create something to be with. 
 
Both these extreme efforts have failed.  Hence humanity stands on a crossroads:  where to go?  The past has utterly failed.  All the efforts that we have done in the past proved wrong, led to cul-de-sacs.  Now where to go? What to do? 
 
Love and freedom are not separate things, you cannot choose.  Either you will have to have both, or you will have to have dropped both.  But you cannot choose, you cannot have one. 
 
Love is the circumference, freedom is the center. 
 
One has to grow in such delicate balance where love and freedom can bloom together.  And they can, because if it hs hapnd 2 few rare individuals .  And evn if it has happened to only a single individual in the whole history, it can happen to every human being.  It is your potential, your birthright.....grab it!.

thts al folks!!njoy!

applying 4 d post of GOD!

wht if d GOD dies due to some unknown disease...n a person frm the earth hs to b chosen to becum d new god?!!!!well the advertisemnt wil b lk..."apply for d post of god...gib ur dream a chance"..or.."bcum god---applyg thought"....or ...."god----performance delivered"....!!!

al d consultancy wil go wild on this one...u  cn get a mail frm lets say...xxx consultancy stating ..plz 4wd ur resume s soon s posible for the post of god..!

requirements:(eligibility)

1.phd in human managemnt/MBA in human resource wid a minimum of 99.99%

2.sd b willing to wok 24X7....both night shift n day shift....365 days a yr(366 in case of a leap yr) for the rest of ur life.

3.wok experience of 0-ur age(or even more).

4.sd hv good interpersonal,comunication,technical....n whteva skill u  cn thk of.

5.sd hv a pleasing persoanlity(so the african n sub indian continents r nt eligible for this post).

wok profile:

1.deals mainly wid killing ,injuring,torturing,humilatn human race.(n a bit of sex n fun).

2.birth control.

3.adjusting  humans frm place to place!

4.nothn much....enjoy life.

compensation:do i  need to mention this?(boy! the wordls is urs)...lol/s company standard/nest in d industry.

company profile:

company name:heaven technologies.

company id:hv001(nasdaq:hv666)

the oldest company/organisation in the whole....whteva...hv been listed is nasdaq n NSE n hs been contantly delivering customer satisfaction wid  der wok.it hs also been listed in bangalore stock exchange bt later removed due to its racial comments on d asian people.(or most probly of corruptions.....n political thgs...u knw) this company hv one worker n he hs been delivering good wok for the company.recently the company thot of overtakin infosys,TCS,wipro ,accenture ,microsft..etc etc...bt drop d plan due to recession!

no. of req: one(1).

those who hv applied in d past 10 millions yrs r nt eligble to apply.

for any queries please contact:

michael ng

ph. no. (0)9738216372,

new heaven street,heaven

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life of a street dog!

they do whteva they wan....they eat whteva they cn find...they sleep weneva dey fil lk...they r der own boss...thts life..!!!life of a street dog!

nothn fancy bt dey live life king size..!!lol! 

the othr day i  ws strolg around in ma block lane....it ws n early morng....i  saw two dogs..wel in a compromisg position....u  dn expect me to xplian it explicitly..!!!!so dey do wer eva dey wans(add to ma list)...no issues!sumtyms i  envy der lifestyles!no worries abt job..studies...family(dey do hv family bt u knw d heirarchy changes frm tym to tym).....money...food.....!dey dn hv ne tension abt der life!thts hw lfe sd b!

*more to come on this one!

one las xm!

it ws a lovely day....a perfect day for a match between chennai and punjab!i woke up wid a hang ova of las nite party...actualy it ws a movie party!the clock ws tikin 11:00 am....oh shit !today i  hv ma univ xm at 14:00.the last xm i  hv beeen waiting for lk...13 days..i wrote ma last xm on 6th n 2day is 20th..so its 13-14 days...ohhhkkkk 14 days..uff!!wel lk a good engg student i  believe in one night satnd b4 xm ...d only prob ws i  forgt to study las nyt.las 14 days were lk heaven..made a trip to nandi hills...shivasamudram...ws plang for goa bt v ran out of cash..lol..so nw i hv 3 hrs to study...d syllabus ws fine..jus 3 books...n one reference ....den i  thot, wht diff wd it make in 3 hrs!!!so i  startd doin ma fav tym pas...orkutg..wht else!

i reachd col n hr b4 d xm...thot of doin some final rivision der...lol!bt thnx to ma frns for nt lettin me study... ...lol!(   reason for nt studyg :posing for snaps!)

so , finaly d clock ticks 14:00 n i  ws al set for ma final xm.....d las xm i  wil b givin ...without studyg nethg...heheh).

the q paper ws simple....d first 3 wer numericals...wich i  hv done for ma 3rd tst....n it ws lk a month b4....so i tried sumthg...gt sumthg bt tht sumthg wsnt d correct ans..lolthe nxt 2 wer lengthy theory.....it ws frm ....m nt sure frm which book it ws...neva hrd of those terms actualy!so i  tried to write smthg bt it ws al craps..i  wrote somethg abt java multithreadg...lol!

the rest of d question were simple (only if i  hv done some rivision instead of tht photo session..lol)....10 questions...2 mks each!did 4 questions properly..thnks to sanjukta....she ws sittin infront of me(n thnx 2 ma supermans' eyes)...hehehehh!

wel  i  completed d whole paper in 20-30 minutes...wow!(actualy d paper ws 4 3 hrs)....nw i  ws waitin for someone to take the initiative of walking out of d hall....i sit for another  20 mins..it ws a long wait...lol!

nw m a proud engg...lol.

moral of d post:anyone cn bcum n engg!:)

thts al folks!

u neva knw wht u hv until u lose it!!!

it ws a sunday afternoon....d calender tht ws hanging near our much furnished room shows d yr 1991...october most prob..i ws 6 yrs old thn.i heard someone shoting near our rear gate which ws half broken ....someone shouting in a chaostic way ,i ran out of d room and saw everyone running here n der...d scene reminds me of a vietnam war movie tht i saw fews days bk...i ws confused and dint rem exactly wht hapnd afterwards...i ws taken inside d room by one of ma aunt and she stayed wid me d whole evening....i wsnt alowed to go outside...i hrd someone cryg loudly in a hysterical way...more lk someone close to her died....i ws too young to make out wht exactly ws hapeng....i slept off n dint rem a thg after tht...!!!

the nxt day i find a hugh crowd ....every1 wearg white clothes n all...and i find ma mom lying in a semi concious state.....tht tym i realised tht somthg bad hs hapnd...i can c ma dad standing in a passive mood in a fah corner...wid red eyes...most prob due to d tears he hs bin hiding.!!!i dint knw wht ws hapening n dint hv d courage to ask also.....!

i ws too young to make out nethg of d scene.!!

i hv jus lost ma brother....d only brother i had...!he ws 9 yrs old.......i dint even hv d chance to love him...!!

now i feel a void in ma heart wheneva i think of him!!
thn i said to maslf...life cn b very unfair at times!

GOD-a spritual take!

does god realy exits?---this is d mostly asked question in d world.... many researches have been done on this bt no proof or satisfactory answer hs been found!!everyone hv der owm view on god...if u ask a preiest he wil say the god is d savior of al.....if u ask a small child he wil say santa clause or angel....if u ask a bussiness man he wil say god is money.....if u ask a lady who hs jus delivered a cute baby...she wil say god is love.....if u ask a person who hs jus lost his 5 yrs old boy in an accident he wil say god is jus anothr imaginatn of human....but if u ask me wht is GOD...i wil say god is me....i believe god is in me n nower else...everyone hs der own god bt dey r jus too afraid to realised tht or too late wen dey realised it.

wen man first evolved in this world dey wer lonely...dey wer afraid ...dey wer not sure wht life is..dey felt insecure ...dey wer afraid to die...wer wil dey go aftr dey die...al dis created n insecurity in thm..so dey created GOD...they mak thmselve believe tht some higher power is controlg everythg n wen dey die dey go der...so this sense of security makes d so cald GOD stronger...people startd believg in this n bcoz of tht 90% of d people in d world believe in god nw.am not an athiest or a believer of god..i am d new generation who believe god is in us n not in temple or church or heaven...or whteva dey cal..
there is no harm in believg somthg bt it sd nt harm others..it sdnt b d reason for a catastropic damage in d society...if you believe in god thn y so many names n y so many wars in d name of god or religion...this isnt fair at al.i define god s a force tht kips al people togethr nt d othr way around...discrimination in d name of religion...discrimination in d name of caste...race...this is not GOD.....!!

wen u believe god is in u...u cnt do nethg harm to ur fellow people...u cn b a good person..u wil b spritualy enlightened...bt its a long way to go b4 i cn achieve tht coz since ma childhood i ws made to believe in god n m realy hapy tht i realised tht wht i ws made to believe isnt true.nw i realised that god is in me...i am d god....if u r able to thk tht way u cn neva harm neone nor do any bad thgs to othrs.

i dn meant to hurt neone's sentimnts ..i jus wan u to realised its neva too late to realised tht...

one last party or a new begining?

it ws a fine day....a very fine day tht reminds me tht d spring hs finaly arived...2day is d day v get 2gethr for one las tym....d farewel party of 05-09 batch...ma batch!we r cumg to to n end of our col life...d part of our life which we cn neva 4gt...4 long yrs ws neva too long for me...it ws full of love...frnshp....joy...party...bday bums....internals....externals.....sports....col fest....d list cont...al of a sudden i fell insecure... a filin tht somthg very importnt is being taken away frm me...!4 yrs seems lk jus 4 days....n a life long memories.i dn wan to go away frm this palce...this palce seems lk a home to me nw.i feel secure n i fel ocupied here...!wid jus few days to go i try remembrg al those thgs i hv done in this four yrs...n i feel a zeal inside me wheneva i thk abt tose days..!!

i sat in a far corner of d room ......dj ws rockin...our juniors wer rockg...d gals wer hot....!!!evryone seems to b very hapy ...dancg n al bt no one seems to cared of wht lies ahead of us...evry one wans to njoy for one las tym s a studnt..!i took a sip of d coke i hv taken frm d coupen i got at d entry gate i thot y al this hs to end all of a sudden...y life ws so cruel....y we need this party?this isnt a party v wan....v wan a party lk welcome...or frns4eva ...or always2gethr...nethg of tht sort...!!

after thkg 4 a while i realise tht this is the begeng of a new life...new chalenges..new frns....new gals(hope ma gf isnt readg this)....i am hapy agn...i joined d dance party n danced til d end of party......n i realised tht i wil rem this party more thn nethg else....!!!